Life is a rollercoaster ride, there's fun... and there's sadness. Life is not just black and white. There's always ups and downs. Some just wants to give up because of what they have went through. Some are just taking life as a joke. Some are patiently waiting for miracle to happen. Some risk their lifes in the name of love...
How can we make our life worthy?
For me, i have one simple wish... To have my own happy family. Sinong ayaw ng ganitong buhay. Lahat tayo ang may pangarap. But we couldn't set aside the problems that exists within our lives. Kambal na yan ng buhay. Money, parents, lovers, marital problems, siblings, friends, works, lahat sila, pwedeng maapektuhan. Ang babaw no? But we can still achieve our dreams basta focus lang tayo at siympre meron tayong mgae katangian na ganito.
It's called patience, sacrifices, understanding, working hard... and have faith. Do not let your anger take control. And always have an open mind. Every problems has its solution. Every questions has its answers. There's always reasons behind everything. And always remember that...
"Theres always a rainbow after the rains."
Why do we have to passed through all these problems? This is just a test that we have to go through, To know who we are. To learned and become a stronger person. Sometimes we give up everything just for the sake of money. Poverty is what makes people more inclined to do evil doings. Unfortunate ones are more blessed. But it's sad to say how money had made them an easy victim to do devils work. Sa hirap ng buhay, lahat gagawin mo makuha mo lang gusto mo...
Money is a necessity, a major factor of problems caused by poverty. Most people thought money is everything. It does not. It feeds evilness. We should make our life more worthy in God's love. Well some would find this as a funny statement, from those who does not believe that God indeed existed. I have been brought up by a catholic parents. I have been taught about God's LOVE. I guess I am more fortunate. I have this blind faith. I respect others opinion and views in life. Our upbringing are different and thus why everyone has different points of view. But I do feel sad to the people who do not believe in HIM. Some non-believers asked, why do you believe in God? Have you seen Him? I just smiled and said, "I do not need to see God to believe. HE is in my heart already. Wherever I goes I know HE is with me." I know these, because I have been through a terrible past, and in HIM i found peace. In HIM i have found my way home.
What about you? What is God in your life? How do you served him?
I do not claimed myself righteous. Nor I am religious. I skip masses sometimes. I am just imparting a words of wisdom to help those lost soul, in these way, maybe I could get some sense in them and at the same time... I could served GOD.
I hope I could be used by GOD, as HIS instrument...in touching other people's lives, and help those in needs. I have a long journey to take... If God's will, my life shall be as long as HE needs me. I hope if I ever leave this earth...... I could make a thousands people happy.
Monday, July 28, 2008
Saturday, July 26, 2008
Looking for sympathy
When you first met your ex boyfriend or girlfriend, do you think they were attracted to you because you were depressed? Did you strive to be unhappy around them? Did they respect you because of your self pity and broken spirit?
It's unlikely because these are not the qualities or behaviors that people find attractive in a potential girlfriend or boyfriend.
We find the exact opposite attractive... strong, upbeat, friendly, and motivated people are one's that we want to be with in a romantic relationship.
But, in an anguished post break up mental state, we somehow convince ourselves that if we can make our ex feel sorry enough for us they will want to get back together. So, we may act sullen and depressed... wallowing (as dramatically as possible) in our self pity. Or, we may act out - getting very upset and behaving in ways we normally wouldn't (often doing stupid things we regret later) - hoping that our ex will realize just how much pain the break up is causing us and how hard it is for us to live without them.
Basically, we do the opposite of what brought us together with our girlfriend or boyfriend in the first place! While we should be making ourselves more attractive, instead, we pour all our energy into making ourselves unattractive.
If you take a step back and look at what is really happening, it's easy to see that this isn't at all logical or productive. Not only do these self-destructive acts negatively impact your life, it hurts your chances of ever getting them back. The more ridiculous you act, the more sure they become they made the right decision by leaving you.
We turn to desperate and counter productive approaches like this when we feel we have no solid plan, viable alternatives, or available options.
For those who are willing to set their self pity aside there is a better way of getting back an ex. Refuse to sink into negative feelings and behaviors. Depression and self pity aren't helping you get back with your ex, achieve your goals, or create the life you want.
Courtesy Model: Angel
Articles: Common Mistakes
Mood: Tired
It's unlikely because these are not the qualities or behaviors that people find attractive in a potential girlfriend or boyfriend.
We find the exact opposite attractive... strong, upbeat, friendly, and motivated people are one's that we want to be with in a romantic relationship.
But, in an anguished post break up mental state, we somehow convince ourselves that if we can make our ex feel sorry enough for us they will want to get back together. So, we may act sullen and depressed... wallowing (as dramatically as possible) in our self pity. Or, we may act out - getting very upset and behaving in ways we normally wouldn't (often doing stupid things we regret later) - hoping that our ex will realize just how much pain the break up is causing us and how hard it is for us to live without them.
Basically, we do the opposite of what brought us together with our girlfriend or boyfriend in the first place! While we should be making ourselves more attractive, instead, we pour all our energy into making ourselves unattractive.
If you take a step back and look at what is really happening, it's easy to see that this isn't at all logical or productive. Not only do these self-destructive acts negatively impact your life, it hurts your chances of ever getting them back. The more ridiculous you act, the more sure they become they made the right decision by leaving you.
We turn to desperate and counter productive approaches like this when we feel we have no solid plan, viable alternatives, or available options.
For those who are willing to set their self pity aside there is a better way of getting back an ex. Refuse to sink into negative feelings and behaviors. Depression and self pity aren't helping you get back with your ex, achieve your goals, or create the life you want.
Courtesy Model: Angel
Articles: Common Mistakes
Mood: Tired
Monday, July 21, 2008
"But I Love You So Much"
After a break up, many people will try to repair the relationship by repeatedly telling their ex how much they love them:
"We can't break up... I love you!"
"If you knew how much I loved you, you wouldn't leave."
"I love you. If you leave me I'll be miserable."
Perhaps because of messages we get from society, some of us are under the impression that "love conquers all" so our love should be enough to save our relationship. The unfortunate fact is that loving relationships often don't work. Your love for your ex, in itself, is not enough to bring you back together.
For the relationship to have a chance your ex needs to love you too. But even that isn't enough - they need to love you the right way. To keep things simple I'll generalize love into two categories:
There is "I-care-about-you" love. This is the platonic love you may feel for a close friend or a family member. This love may involve such feelings as sympathy or pity and it is not romantic, sexual, or involve any kind of attraction. A couple who has only this type of love for each other is probably on the verge of a break up or settling for security reasons.
Then there is "I-need-to-be-with-you" love. This love involves attraction, desire, and excitement. This is the romantic, passionate love that brings people together, keeps them together, and brings them back together after a breakup. When two people have this type of love for each other they are willing to work on the relationship instead of leaving it.
And herein lies the solution and the challenge... rekindling "I-need-to-be-with-you" love in your ex. It's extremely difficult because you can't force your ex to have these feelings for you. In fact, the harder you try to force it, the less likely they are to feel this way (this is what I call the paradox of attraction)! Your role in recreating this feeling in your ex has to be more indirect.
That isn't to say that you have no control. In many ways your ex is only reacting to you. You can influence how they react by controlling how you present yourself and what you say.
There are very specific things that you can do to improve your chances of getting back your ex boyfriend or ex girlfriend. Repeatedly telling your ex that you love them is definitely not one of them.
Articles: Common Mistakes
Mood: Contemplative
Loving You Means Madness
I thought loving you would give me happiness... and yet i never thought loving you would also bring so much sadness. I have never love so much until i met you. I thought my love would be enough to make you happy. I was wrong.
I admit i am not a perfect person nor will i ever be. You are the best thing that ever happen in my life... Someone that loves me and accept me for who I am. Since I met you... I found love. In your arms I found happiness. When you went away, my world crumbles down. I thought life was unfair. But I still hope that we could work things out. But why do i feel that i am alone in this journey. I found myself yearning for your touch. But you are always seem to be cold and distant.
Have you really love me at all? Or you must have mistaken your love from sympathy? You always says 'I love you'. It was a sweet songs in my ears. But why say sweet nothings when you ignores me right after? I hate what becomes of myself. Begging for your love and for your attention.
I want to go away... Away where you can't hurt me. But how? I need to learn how to love myself again. I want to have my self-respect back. I want to know my self worth. I may not find happiness in love... it doesn't matter now. I just want to end this misery.
Mood: Hurt
Music: My immortal -Evanescnce
Thursday, July 17, 2008
Talk About My Day
It's already 1pm and I know I have been up really late. I never check the time when im always doing photo editing. *sighs* It was half past 5 in the morning when i felt tired and went to bed. I called J first to check on him, as i was not able to call him on his lunch break. The network is just crap! When i tried to get up, i saw my maid, Beth checking her emails. It surprises me, I never thought she would used my pc without asking me first. Ugggh! I was just about to give her a good talk, but I saw Bing. Bing is busy getting my son ready to school. This woman is amazing. She's been the best nanny to Zyke, and always a good friend to me. I hired her since last year. It's good to feel i can help her in someway, as she has been a big help for me and my family. I get to have my son's KISS before he went off to school. He's now in Kindergarten. At 5years old I am quite amazed by how much he changed! His english are improving. I am very proud of him... although he can be a bit stubborn sometimes. Well, most little boys are.
I went to help my mum in our little shop after i had my lunch. Work there for 4hrs and i haven't stayed long in the shop since i need to help my son review his lessons for tomorrows monthly test in Values and Arts subjects. He did well in school. He got a perfect score in his Reading test. And his Math test, he got 19 correct answers out of 20 questions. Not bad, although he could have been perfect. But the teacher didn't draw the object nicely. My son thinks its a box, so he put a checked mark on the biggest object as the test instructed. Huh? Even I myself find it confusing...
Here are some of the photos I edited. I love Architectural Buildings... These are a few photos that i took on my way to DFA last year. I thought to make them in black and white to add mystery. Since I don't have a good camera. Filters in photoshop helps. :D
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
Dark Brooding Arts
I had a good sleep and woke up with a beautiful sunlight streaming from my windows. I can hear the birds singing... Looking outside, It promise a good weather. no foreboding storms... Unlike the last few weeks. It was pure hell! Looking back, during my dark brooding days. I find myself doing some photo manipulations for my friends, Harmony and Fawn. It usually helps me relax. Here are some of my recent works. I might done your photo for free, just leave a comment. ;)
Mood: Artistic
Music: Better than me - Hinder
Saturday, July 5, 2008
Trip Songs
Thursday, July 3, 2008
Bleeding Love
I remember the first time i met you. I knew then it was you. It felt so right. It felt so good. I feel like im the luckiest girl in the world.
But then you have to go... Brushing your lips against mine and we said our goodbyes, it almost tears me apart... You hugs me so tight and promise things are goin to be alright. You promise to love me forever. I hold that promise in my heart when you went away...
But why do i feel all alone now? It has been 3 months since i was in your arms. How come you changed. I thought you'd gonna get online? I thought you'd gonna call me? I feel like you're drifting away. You said "I'm just busy baby, please understand." I do understand, even though we haven't had time to talk a lot. I thought i could call you anytime. Your voice makes me feel good... But then you started to ignore my calls again. I still try and understand. Maybe, just maybe you are busy...
I was so excited when you told me you are coming back. I made plans and we talk about our wedding. I called and woke you up and you promised to call me back when you get your flight schedule. I never heard from you since then... I was getting worried. I thought you must have been on your way here to surprise me. I still tried and called. I left messages on your answering machine. I still haven't heard from you and I called the next day. Your brother Chris answered the phone. He said you were asleep. I told him to wake you up. And I was surprised you sound like you've been drinking. You said you was with friends. I wanna scream WHY? You're supposed to be here with me. I cried...and you hang up on me. I called again and you didnt answer the phone. The next day after I called back and left you a messages. Feeling so lost, and tryin to keep myself from ringing you back again a hundred times! Then you called to my surprise and before i can utter a word... you told me that you love me and you're sorry. I know whatever your reasons doesn't matter. All I know is that I love you so much.
My friends told me you aint the man for me. I told them that exactly isnt true, and that you love me. I make excuses for you even to my family. Who thinks you are the most awesome person. I love you with all my heart hun... I just wanna be with you. Please don't treat me this way. Don't walk away when the going gets tough. Don't say im silly, when i asked why. Don't say 'dont worry' coz I care. And don't ignore my calls when you know I need you... . Coz you have my heart bleeding with love.
Mood: Lost
Music: Bleeding Love -Leona Lewis
But then you have to go... Brushing your lips against mine and we said our goodbyes, it almost tears me apart... You hugs me so tight and promise things are goin to be alright. You promise to love me forever. I hold that promise in my heart when you went away...
But why do i feel all alone now? It has been 3 months since i was in your arms. How come you changed. I thought you'd gonna get online? I thought you'd gonna call me? I feel like you're drifting away. You said "I'm just busy baby, please understand." I do understand, even though we haven't had time to talk a lot. I thought i could call you anytime. Your voice makes me feel good... But then you started to ignore my calls again. I still try and understand. Maybe, just maybe you are busy...
I was so excited when you told me you are coming back. I made plans and we talk about our wedding. I called and woke you up and you promised to call me back when you get your flight schedule. I never heard from you since then... I was getting worried. I thought you must have been on your way here to surprise me. I still tried and called. I left messages on your answering machine. I still haven't heard from you and I called the next day. Your brother Chris answered the phone. He said you were asleep. I told him to wake you up. And I was surprised you sound like you've been drinking. You said you was with friends. I wanna scream WHY? You're supposed to be here with me. I cried...and you hang up on me. I called again and you didnt answer the phone. The next day after I called back and left you a messages. Feeling so lost, and tryin to keep myself from ringing you back again a hundred times! Then you called to my surprise and before i can utter a word... you told me that you love me and you're sorry. I know whatever your reasons doesn't matter. All I know is that I love you so much.
My friends told me you aint the man for me. I told them that exactly isnt true, and that you love me. I make excuses for you even to my family. Who thinks you are the most awesome person. I love you with all my heart hun... I just wanna be with you. Please don't treat me this way. Don't walk away when the going gets tough. Don't say im silly, when i asked why. Don't say 'dont worry' coz I care. And don't ignore my calls when you know I need you... . Coz you have my heart bleeding with love.
Mood: Lost
Music: Bleeding Love -Leona Lewis
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